WOWWWW

Wow...it's only Monday of the 2nd week of school but it feels like I've been in school foreverr. I'm not too satisfied with my schedule, but it's nothing im very upset about either, I got friends in each class except for like 2 classes. I hope I can make friends in those cause if I don't it's going to be a very, VERY boring year. I like all my teachers though they're pretty nice, I think once I start participating in class more they'll like me. Sigh, but junior year certainly brings with it more work. I haven't staying up too late, but I'm not getting the sleep I need. Hopefully as the year progresses I'll grow closer with friends here and make some more, so I can have a fun filled year.
So I was talking to one of my close friends from my old school and it really made me miss old times...and it made me wonder what my life would've been if I never moved. What classes would I be taking? How many of my friends would still be my friends? How many new friends would I have gained? How many new enemies would I have made? Would I be a different person? Would my values have changed? What new shennanegans would we have gotten into? Who would I be going out with? Would I feel content all the time? Or happy and excited? Would I still feel sad and lonely? Who would be my best friend? Who would I hang out with? I miss the feeling of feeling like you belong, walking with these kids who have known each other for years kind of makes me feel like an outsider, whether it be not getting the inside jokes they're telling or just them acting plain old friendly. I'm not saying I'm miserable here, but I'm not happy either, it's just not what I want. And now when I go back to MD with my old friends at first I feel like an outsider there too because they've had a whole years experience together without me and I feel left out in that awkward middle, not close to kids here but too distant from my old friends. If you're reading this you don't have to worry about me I'm not depressed or anything, I'm just in a state of blah...